I’ve been staring at a blank computer screen for over an hour now and can’t think of a single inspiring, quotable thing to say. Mainly because I’ve been feeling sorry for myself for days now and I really just feel like bitching a little bit. So, since this is my diary, and I can cry if I want to, I’m going to do just that.
I’m fucking exhausted. Every second of my life is planned and scheduled. And I’m so sick of it. I want to sleep in and get up at noon. And I want to sit around drinking coffee in my bathrobe, reading the newspaper. I have a pool that I’ve only been able to get in twice so far since the weather warmed up.
I feel like that little kid who’s stuck indoors, finishing his homework and staring out the window at all of his friends playing stick ball in the street. I’d love to go on outdoor afternoon skates every Sunday afternoon. I want to skate the fishbowl in Hammond sometime. And I want to spend a Wednesday night at Sciara’s pummeling my teammates and fine tuning my blocking. Every practice I go to I see the Capitol Offenders narrowing the gap between the A Team and the B Team. It pisses me off, it makes me nervous and it fills me to the brim with envy.
It also drives me to work my ASS off at practices these days. Granted, I should have been working my ass off since I started, but nothing drives you like fear sometimes. I’m not losing my spot on that roster! Since my availability is limited, I’ve got to really start making the most of the time I have. So, starting today, ladies, it’s take no prisoners. I’m going to hit everything that moves! If you’re in striking distance, I’m going to do my best to take you down. And please don’t take it personally if I happen to knock you on your ass! The only thing YOU’VE done to deserve it, is gotten better! ; )
Photo Credits: fotoJENica a/k/a Jenny Romney and http://lovethatfeeling.com/blog/its-not-easy-bein-green/